The first thing I was taught, “Don’t talk to a stranger,
Strangers aren’t your own, they may trap you into danger.”
So I believed and I followed.
But is only a stranger marked red?
Are all our own well mannered, well fed?
Because I saw a hunger, a hunger full of lust,
A hunger so intense that comes just after a fast.
Is a soul so innocent meant to be a food, a food for pleasure that satisfies the mood?
Wasn’t I adorable enough to be loved with care?
Why with my young age my fate was unfair?
I don’t blame but I question my world,
with greenery all around, is it meant to be so cold?
I was tempted, riddled, puzzled, trapped,
but at the end, my spirit, not once, not twice, by infinity it was slapped!
There stands he, my own, my brother,
By the one I was torn and splitted like a feather.
I remember his shadow captivating my skin,
Scary and ferocious, he was in love his sin.
Monstrous! Believe me.
So yes, I was pricked before I bloomed,
the blossom of my innocence with cruelty was doomed.
I cried, I screamed but my voice was quiet,
I was a girl aged eight, my words were light.
As the years went by, I realised my worth,
but by gales of threat, I stopped walking forth.
And than one fine day, he threatens me a revenge,
says he’ll damage me and his fire will quench.
But now I’m grown, now my wings are strong,
I’ve got a heart of ice that bears no wrong.
The soul that is lost has nothing to lose,
I’ll fight back my fear, my destiny I choose.
When I sit alone, my belly churns up,
I miss my childhood and the charm I deserved.
Well scars don’t leave but wounds get healed,
The pain inside me with strength will be sealed.
This life is worth, I had survived many suns,
My power and my spirit makes me forget that
I was raped once!
Reproduced with permission from Parisha Writes.
Parisha Dutta is a rising writer, poet and blogger. She is of Bengali origin and currently resides in Guwahati, Assam, India. She would like to pursue a literary career as a poet and a writer. Her aim is to become a passionate writer and presently she is trying and working on lyrics and sonets.